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Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost ([info]frostandsnow) wrote in [info]wariscoming,
@ 2011-06-15 22:23:00

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Entry tags:ruby winchester, sam winchester

Who: Ruby & Sam Winchester
What: A letter arrives
Where: Their Bedroom
When: Early Morning
Rating: Probably low but TBD
Status: In Progress



Ruby heard the door, just a little noise, someone dropping a letter off and quickly finished making Sam's coffee before practicly running to the front hallway. There it was. Just an envelope, something so simple but she held on to it like it was the most precious thing in the world as soon as she'd put the coffee down and bent to pick it up.  The puppy Sam had bought for her seemed just as eager to play with it as she was so she had to move him back just to get at the letter. The address was handwritten and she knew. This was it. And it was a hell of a time for it to arrive. Sam was still in bed, sleeping off the various injuries he'd gained, from where he wouldn't tell her but she knew it was more than just his fight with Dean. He was too badly hurt. She hadn't questioned when she'd found him. She'd just helped him to their bed, dressed his wounds. Made sure he was comfortable. It crossed her mind only once that her blood would heal him. It wasn't worth it. Especially for the sake of why they'd gone to find a doctor in the first place. It wouldn't do either of them any good to start down that road if in a hypothetical future they'd start trying for a kid. They hadn't had one in the future but then they hadn't had the animals either. They hadn't been so very domestic as they'd become. As domestic as a Hunter and his demon wife could be at any rate.

She turned the envelope over in her hands a few times not sure if she wanted to open it or not. Her gut told her it wasn't good news. If she could have had kids normally they'd really have been Brangelina by now. Hordes and hordes of kids. They had a lot of sex. Something would have happened by now. So in her heart she knew what the contents would say. The doctor had been kind if a little wary of her. Told her she'd done something amazing just by walking away from hell. He'd done tests. Sam had left the room when she'd needed to give blood, under much protest mind, he'd been calling in from the hall asking what was going on. Oh so protective. The Doctor had done what he needed to do and told her he'd have news in a few days.

And it seemed he did.

Ruby finally nodded, grabbed the coffee from where she'd left it on the table near the door, and moved toward the stairs quickly tracing the familiar path to the room she and Sam shared. The room was dark and the puppy bounded along behind her, but waited at the door. Fluffball was curled up on the pillow she had not long vacated. Ruby moved instead to sit at Sam's side of the bed waking her husband with a soft kiss and looking over the injuries to his face with a critical eye. He was stable still. He'd heal. He was strong. "Baby its here, the letter from the doc." she told him handing over the envelope and his coffee as soon as he was awake enough to take them.  "I'm pretty sure its a no, I mean...it'd be impossible if I could and we hadn't yet but maybe there's something we can do. He said he'd look up some stuff, let us know. But if I can't I mean...thats okay isn't it. We said it wouldn't change anything..."

It wouldn't, she knew that. Sam loved her too much to let it change anything, and she was expecting not to be able to. But there was a small part of her. A tiny part of her that said maybe, maybe it was just coincidence that she hadn't gotten pregnant. Maybe she could and maybe someday... Nah there was no point. The puppy jumped at her legs seeming to sense the anticipation in the room and Ruby reached down to pet him, it didn't do much to take her mind off any of it.

"So...do we open it."


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[info]frostandsnow
2011-06-16 04:18 am UTC (link)
Handing her back the envelope was unexpected, and now she had it in her hands she wasn't sure if she wanted to open it or not. She busied herself looking over his injuries, making sure all the bandages were still in place, she'd have to redress one or two of them later and maybe Sam would want breakfast. He probably would. It would be the thing to do rather than sitting about reading stupid letters she already knew the contents of. She was more than a little nervous now it was there in her hand. It was such a simple thing really, just a letter, but she was finding it meant more and more to her to be able to do this for Sam. Even if they never did have kids, even if they decided their lives were just too crazy and they didn't want them it would be nice to be able. To have that option. Because that was normal wasn't it? Most women could do this for their husbands. And if they couldn't well there were other options, fertility drugs, or surrogacy or even adoption. But no agency would allow them to adopt when they didn't even have identities really, and Sam's original one was declared dead. Very dead. Exploded in a police station as a wanted criminal dead. She figured she needed to feel bad about sending Lilith there. Those lives, that little virgin, they'd meant more than a lesson to the boys and it had taken her this long to see it. No, she needed to look in that envelope. For her, and for the husband that had pulled her out from hells grasp and treated her like a person and not a monster. This was for them.

She waited till he'd sat up a little and moved to wrap herself in beside him. Not pressing against him too much, he was still hurting and she had no intention of making it worse. But she needed him close when she did this. That warmth he had that seemed to be only for her. She needed it now as she slid a nail along the top of the envelope to get to the letter inside. She took a deep, albiet unneeded breath and skim read the letter. Unusual case... never had to consider ...in spite of ...due to possessions effect on the body ...not applicable in this case ...most likely unable to concieve a child of your own Most likely unable. Most likely. He couldn't just say no. That she was a demon, a thing of evil and she couldn't ever be expected to give her husband a kid, even with the options other people had.

Well that sucked.

"Yeah so, no." she said simply, trying to brush it off. It was ridiculous anyway. She didn't even want a kid, so why did her insides feel like they were tearing up just from reading the damn letter. She was a demon. And she'd known Lucifer hadn't twisted souls just so they could spawn little baby demons. The body she walked around in it wasn't even hers. Would any kid have even been hers anyway? Or Sam's and the woman, the Jane Doe who's name she'd never now know even if she cared to. It was better this way. It was simpler. And he still loved her, he'd said so. He'd said he'd still love her even if that option was gone now. And he would. She'd stopped being jealous enough to think he wouldn't love her if she wasn't perfect like Jessica. His love for Jess had turned to friendship. She was his wife, and she was slowly but surely becoming more content in that positon. She'd had to have or he'd probably have gone mad eventually trying to convince her.

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