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Anakin Solo is judging you with his eyes (jedislight) wrote in wariscoming,

When it came to family dinners he would have been more then content to just let it slip away without him, but Tahiri and the others seemed to object. Honestly he didn't know why. Did They really expect him to just be okay with everything? How could anyone possibly expect that of him. Being in a room with those people all in the same place, acting like nothing had gone wrong just worried him more. He knew he should have tried to talk to Jacen, or his mother and Han, but he just wasn't able to. He couldn't get over all the things Jacen had done. All the people he'd killed that Anakin had loved or cared for. It seemed like a very tall request in such a short period of time.

Even he had to admit though it was exhausting. Which was why he had stayed quiet most of the time. He didn't want to say the wrong thing and bring back unwanted memories over cocktails. It was a touchy situation and always would be. He had only recently begun talking to Jacen like a civilized brother on the internet. He wasn't sure if he was ready to do it in person yet. Obviously by the way the dinner had gone, he was not.

He'd hardly noticed Tahiri staring at him while he thought over the memories that decided to run through his mind like a broken record. Always trying to find another way out of death but continuing to come up dry every time. Finally when Tahiri came close and contact brought him back to reality, he cracked the tiniest of smiles. "Sorry..for everything. " His fingertips gently wrapped against her side as he embraced her and leaned against her.

His bright blue eyes slid shut for a moment as he rested. "I know I haven't been much fun to be around lately." He knew she would agree. He agreed."It's just been hard. I remember dying, and now suddenly here I am again. I don't want to think about it anymore, but I don't know how to make it stop. " Jacen was a constant reminder, the darkness he felt off his brother. It was a constant reminder.

"I just want to stop thinking and be here with you. " He didn't want to be the way he was lately, it was making him and everyone else miserable, but he still felt responsible for everything that had happened post mission. For all the lives twisted by it, he felt at fault.