Who: Tenel Ka and Jacen What: Jacen's having an angsty moment Where: Their Bedroom. When: Night of the 20th. Late Rating: TBD Status: In progress.
"Jedi are supposed to be strong" It was Allana's voice, his Allana as a young child. But it wasn't Allana he was seeing. It was his ship. In the middle of his war. And Tebut's neck snapped and Jacen watched as the Lieutennant slumped to the floor of the bridge of the Anakin Solo. And he didn't care. He knew he should, knew that once upon a time he would have cared but now, as he walked away from the scene all he could think about was the Hapan Queen that had so betrayed him. Told him he'd gone too far, told him she'd fire on him if he didn't surrender. Surrender? Him? . He remembered his words to her when he'd taken their daughter, the last thing he had of her and he'd threatened her life to force her mothers hand. "By doing what you did to me, you changed me into someone capable of doing exactly what I have promised. The threat is not a bluff, and if it takes place, it will be your doing. Something to keep in mind the next time you play the Hapan cultural game of backstabbing and bloodletting."The fury had been deep inside him, a burning rage that ate away at whatever he had left of a soul and it had finally given out when they'd taken Allana back, his own mother had tricked him and he had nothing. Tebut had been in the wrong place at the wrong time and had died for it. And people had begun to look at him differently, he was no longer the hero, the man leading them against the Correllians and their allies, He was a rabid animal, wilder than any of those he'd tamed as a child and he was dangerous.
They looked at him like a monster and maybe he was.
Then it was Jaina's face, full of anger and a resolution to do what needed to be done. He fought like a man possessed, fought for everything he needed to do, needed for the galaxy and Jaina didn't understand, she talked about his mother and father, about the wider galaxy and suddenly Jacen knew one of them wasn't making it out of here. It could have been her. He was injured but he could fight back, he could take her with him but if he did that then he wouldn't have the time he needed to contact her.
"Get out, get out, Take Allana and..."
It wasn't until he'd sat up in the bed he shared with the Hapan Queen, in the city that had given her back to him that Jacen realised he'd called through his bond to her once again, like he had that day. His last action. He looked around finding himself shaking. Weak. Jedi should be strong. And maybe they should. But he was far from a Jedi.