Backdated... to the future! Who? 2014!Castiel & OTA {various subthreads) What? Future-stuff: collating any backdated 2014!threads Where? Cas' Hovel of Surprisingly Physical Spiritual Enlightenment, and other places When? 2014 Rating? Given that Cas is a permanently-stoned guru and everything's gone to hell, who knows?
OOC: Since Cas' mun missed The End plot due to the house-moving, internet-losing debachle anyone who wants a backdated thread with 2014!Cas can chuck one up here :)
He could remember - when he chose to, which wasn't often - how it started. At first it was about not feeling, about shutting things out - signals he couldn't process, demands which were inconvenient (sleep, food, pain) or which he simply didn't know how to meet - about making his ve- body comply. And then it was about feeling too little, wanting to make the colours brighter, straining to catch some faint whisper of the Song. And then...
... and then it was the end of the world and he just didn't care any more.
Which in the end boiled down to a fallen angel and a gaping wound where Grace used to be, just as raw as if he'd had the guts to tear it out rather than saunter downwards. Which was all it ever boiled down to. Which was why he preferred not to think about it.
He remembered how everything else started, too, but none of that mattered because you didn't have to be an angel or a prophet or a chosen vessel (chosen asshole) to know how it was going to end. Not with a bang, or a whimper, but a sharp prick and a long, slow sigh.