"If I let you go. Can you promise me to be my husband, just for today? I’ll get you a shirt and jeans or something, you can be Sam and I can be Ruby and it’ll be like it’s supposed to be, You’d like that wouldn’t you. If you want to apologise to me, do it this way. I don’t want to hurt you Sam but if you try to get away he’ll take you over again and he might not let me see you again. This is how it has to be, this is what you’ve reduced us to. And I’ve decided to live with it because I love you more than I knew it was possible to love.” Was he even listening to her, could he understand how much she needed this. Needed him? It was breaking her heart, and she knew in many ways she’d screwed up, she knew she’d feel guilt over Dean but what were the other options. She didn’t know of any.
She loosened her grip, just a little, eyes focused on his, pleading silently for him to just agree, just to give in. She didn’t want to hurt him again. Just a day, that was all she asked and she didn’t think it was very much. In the grand scheme of things, her selfish day, might actually hurt the world. Might give Lucifer everything he needed and was very likely to cost Dean his life. He didn’t deserve that, he was a good man. But she didn’t deserve this either. So selfishness won out and Ruby waited and hoped Sam would see sense.