The caged animal routine had long since stopped bothering her. She'd gotten used to letting him go through it. Gotten used to coaxing him back to being at least somewhat sensible. Then she could talk to him. Then she could make him her husband again, just for a little while. It was one of the most amazing feelings ever when she managed to get it back. He'd taken the ring from her and was staring at it and yes, yes those were the memories, she could almost see the dawning realisation as he watched her and looked at the ring. He was staring at her as a soft smile formed on her lips, she had her husband back. And then...
No, "Sam that's not...you don't understand." Dean. Of course Dean. He wouldn't. Couldn't understand that Ruby had essentially been given a choice. Dean or Sam. Husband or brother in law. Lover or friend. And she'd made the only choice she knew how to make. She'd chosen Sam. "He wants to kill you. Well, Lucifer, but you'd die. Dean was going to kill you and I couldn't let it happen, You have to understand I love you" she told him stepping in closer to him. "Lucifer says it has to happen. He said that if we go along with it, we get this, we get us. Don't you want that?"
She knew somewhere deep inside that the second presence they'd talked to her about, the one she'd lied to Lucifer over was screaming in defiance at being pushed down. But she also knew that past Ruby could no more take her husbands life than she could. "I can't stop Lucifer. I'm not that strong, no one is. So that's why I agreed. That's why I said I'd stand by. You have to understand, I don't want him to die. He's my friend, he's family. But what other choice do I have. The world is burning. Everything we are is being ripped away from us and I have to do whatever it takes so that we surrvive. Because even this, even with you probably hating me. It's better than not having you at all."
Sam wouldn't agree. Couldn't agree. Ruby knew that too. But he didn't get a say in this. Ruby had made her decision for the sake of her husband and that was all there was to it.
"Now, won't you come and sit. Just sit, we can pretend like its different can't we. Like it used to be?"