It really was theirs, all of this, all of those memories. And despite the sheer hell she'd been put through, both of them had, and maybe a deserved hell, there was nothing that either of them would let spoil this night. Nothing. Oh she could see it in his eyes, in little glances across at her that he was thinking about the blood. But the important thing was that he wasn't acting on it, he had the willpower not to, the willpower to sit and celebrate the birthday he'd given her alongside her. It was amazing of him and she loved him all the more for the fact he was doing it. So she ignored how tightly he gripped at the menu, ignored the occasional darts of the eyes to her neck, or her arm, or wherever else he might think about. She'd help by not drawing attention to it, because what she could focus on were his words, on the looks across to her not tainted with the addiction, little smiles, little comments. That was her Sam. And that was who he was working his way to being again.
"I remember, You just wanted to show me, you were planning to be smug, this was of course then the attempt to be an asshole that I couldn't care about, do you remember that. You trapped me." It had been such a game of one upping back then. It had seemed to be all he'd wanted from her and she was happy to tease and torment him in return, knowing there was a higher plan for him but not ever suspecting for a second that she could fall in love with him. That had been the last thing on her mind.
"I've never been more grateful for things changing though, in all the ways they did after that night. I started to see things I was doing wrong. I began to wonder how one man could change my opinion on so much. I was becoming a person not a weapon in the fight and it felt good. It felt amazing actually, and you gave me all of that. You gave me that different side of you" And wow she'd gone speechy, this wasn't usually her but she meant every word. And she still went weak like a teenage girl when he smiled at her.
"I love you more and more every day Sam, and someday I'll say that in front of a lot of people. But for now, just you knowing it is good enough. You made me worthy of being a worthwhile person. You set me on the path to it"
She looked down at the menu blushing slightly. "...we should decide on food I guess"