She supposed she was being nice for her own reasons, selfish ones, and maybe she was doing it because he felt like someone she could really have connected with once upon a time. Because maybe some of his bad things were like her bad things and maybe he hadn't had the breaks she'd had, like Dean taking a chance on her a few years back. He'd told her the basics of the marraige drunkenly, and Ruby remembered little bits, they'd never planned marraige. But there was a kid and he'd felt he should. Ruby probably wouldn't have insisted Lauren's father marry her even if she could be sure of who he was. She wouldn't even ask for money unless she really needed it. Its why she'd never done the test. She didn't need to know. Maybe one day if Lauren started asking about Daddy, but how could she go around asking the not small amount of men she'd fucked at that party? It wasn't classy. "I could guarantee to try to. I know some of it. We talked a bit a couple years back. There was drinking, anyway...You were having some trouble then. I guess I figured it all worked itself out but I guess sometimes it just...doesn't."
"Y'know godfreak Billie? My Mom reminds me so much of her and I'm just barrel loads of sin. Kid out of wedlock, no father anywhere. Working for a corperation of sinners. She thinks Dean has 'ulterior motives'. She thinks I'm going to raise Lauren heathen. The whole thing. So yeah I earn a fair bit. But I use every cent of that to make sure Lauren's content. She deserves the best of everything. I can give her a good life with the PA job and in the end that's more important than my own happiness. It helps that Dean's pretty awesome about Lauren stuff. He likes the kid much as he won't admit it."
Problems were problems, everyone had them, and sometimes ignoring them made them worse. Sam needed to realise that. Needed to see that sometimes there were unfixable things. Sometimes life really did just suck that much. And sometimes having someone there as a soundboard was the best feeling in the whole world. She'd done it with her friends, plenty
"Tell me again, now I'm all sober" she only half joked, "I'll give you whatever advice I can even if you don't much like it. You meanwhile, move down away from the door with me and smoke away at that." she told him, beckoning him into a much more secluded area of the lot where the smoke wouldn't waft back toward the building.