He hadn't thought about it like that. Darkness versus light. Sam had to admit, right now was probably one of the darkest times of his life. He was doing things that he shouldn't have been doing. They were bordering at the potential end of the world. Yet, all the same, Sam didn't mind. Because Ruby came with that, didn't she? And if Ruby represented the dark, then he didn't want to play in the light one bit. "Nah," Sam replied, shrugging, "I don't want the sun." He looked up, mimicking the same gesture that one would make if they were actually outside looking directly into the sunlight. He squinted at the ceiling a little, then looked down at her with a faint smile. "Dark is better. It's easier on the eyes." At that, he took that same hand that he'd had at her chin and dragged his thumb across her cheek slowly. The gesture alone sent a chill down his spine. How long had it been since he'd touched her? Sam bit down onto his lip and slowly withdrew that same hand, burying it safely into his pocket.
"I don't miss it." That wasn't necessarily true. Sometimes when he was on his own, he thought about it. College. The normal life. It was all a bunch of 'what if's' though. Nothing that Ruby or anyone else needed to worry about. Besides, it wasn't always that way. Those thoughts came along lesser and lesser as the years went on. Even more so ever since Ruby had come into his life. "I mean, a part of me does sometimes. But not when I'm with you." Sam looked sure of himself there. "Never when I'm with you. I know that we can be happy together, Ruby. It's gonna be tough. You being a demon and me being a Hunter, but if you really want to stick with me? I won't protest it. I want it. I want you. Now, please, stop thinking about what's better for me, all right? I know what I need. I know who I need." Sam looked down at her, eyes heavy with concern. "We'll do this thing together. I'll help you get better, you'll help keep me sane." Another slight smile formed. "Is that okay?"