"Not just because of you. Because of everything. All the secrets, all the lying, all the sneaking around that we had to do. It was...I want things to be better for us. We deserve better than that, don't we?" Ruby had been more vocal about her dislike when it came to the fact that they had to sneak around while they were dating, but Sam had hated it just as much. There had been plenty of moments where he'd wanted to declare that Ruby was his girlfriend while socializing with others. Always having to space himself apart from her just the right way, being careful as to what he said to her in public, behaving as carefully as possible as to avoid bringing forth any unwanted attention. Perhaps they had been terrible at it, but having to constantly think about being cautious had been tiring. As complicated as things were now, Sam preferred it this way. Everyone knew. They weren't a secret. If he had things his way, they'd never be a secret ever again.
"That was years ago, Ruby," Sam pointed out, "that life of mine is completely gone. And after a while - after I've spent so much time hunting and burying my head in the sand - that life isn't a possibility for me anymore. It's like..." He slid his hands down a little, gripping at the sides of her arms rather than her shoulders. He had noticed that she'd eased in closer, but Sam didn't pay her too much mind just then. He needed to explain. "That life is like a sunset. Amazing to look at, but if I stuck my arm out I'd never be able to reach it. Besides the fact, if I ever did be able to reach that sun...all it'd ever do is burn me." That much was a given. It was why Jessica had died. He wasn't meant for a normal life. If he had been, he'd be working his way fresh out of law school by now.
"I want you. You. Ruby. The woman who sneaks my fries away, tortures me with The Doors, and has the ability to drive me completely insane without putting in a single second of effort. The witch who taught me how to protect myself from being detected by demons and angels, introduced me to the safer side of summoning demons, and constantly amuses me with her threats of hexing me while I'm completely drunk off my ass." He pulled her in toward him, even closer than the short distance she'd managed to sneak in before. "The demon." Sam smiled softly. "The demon who fooled me, but decided to put everything on the line - including herself - to make it right. I know that it seems nice. The whole college life. Wife, two kids, a house, nice car, job. The works. But I don't think I could ever go back to that now, Ruby. It's a nice package, but it'd never be complete without you in it. Nothing would." Sam reached forward, long fingers slipping underneath her chin so that he was able to tilt her head up slightly. Sam needed her to look at him. "There is no one out there that I would rather be with, do you understand? You're the only one out there for me. I don't care what you say - you're the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time. There's nothing better. No one better. Anyone who says otherwise is a moron."