Ruby took on board everything he'd said, about the virgin girl, about the FBI agent, she understood it, and nodded at him to show it as he moved to the seat. "I'm thinking back, trying to think of every time I met you, the things we might have done. The things I did beliving I did them to help you become better, stronger. I think that was the very worst of them. We'll sit down one night soon and I'll tell you it all, the whole sorry mess thats me, from the little I remember of being human, being a witch, hell, and then Azazel, Lilith. I'll tell you all of it, but that day, those cops. That was the crulest I think I've ever been to you. I mean Lilith...I knew when I gave her...the body and all but you had to have known that. Dean shut me in that trap and I screamed that I hated him, that was true. I thought, if he died it'd be revenge for Azazel y'know. I'd be happy. But no one deserves what he got, the hellhounds. Thats..."
She sighed having joined him on the couch as she'd spoken, the hand on her knee had to have been hard for him, that effort, that emotion. Making that leap, but she liked how it felt there. She didn't know how long it might stay with the things she was saying.
"I'm really trying. The mom, she was all grateful, thanked me, and I thought I'd finally done something good, something I could point out to you and say, 'see, trying' but it was just dumb wasn't it. Just a kid I helped, it doesn't make up for those people. It doesn't make up for any of it" She looked over to him, turning herself so she faced him more, her expression resolute. "No more secrets, you ask me Sam, ask me anything, make or break. I'll never lie to you or keep secrets again. I swear I won't. You deserve better than that"
She knew what he'd have done, of course she knew. He was a Hunter, and she, a demon. But he was giving her a chance, thats what he was telling her now. Trusting her, and Ruby couldn't let that down. She had to be what he expected from her. Finally realising what he'd said about the car though, she'd smiled. "You thought there was a clown. And it took your shoe but your shoe fought bravely to defend you against the evil of the clown. I sort of love drunk you y'know even if I didn't like why you were drunk. And seriously, what's with the clown hate? We've been together long enough that you can explain it"