"No... no you wouldn't. You don't want what this feels like," Nora told her miserably, shaking her head. And while Dora's words were comforting, and she was happy she was here, even if she didn't feel that way at first, it was still so much emotion. Painful emotion. And Nora wasn't used to handling anything in a healthy, productive way. Part of her wondered how much she was going to spiral simply for the sake of spiraling. Simply so she could make it all stop. After all, she couldn't shut it out herself, regardless of her years of practice honing that skill. So there was only one other way to do it. The very fact she was thinking about such extreme measures terrified her, and she pressed it down as far as she could, hoping it would be enough.
"I know... logically... I know," Nora finally responded after a while with a small hiccup. "But.. we both know... it's not that simple." Swallowing past the lump in her throat, Nora blinked a few more tears out of her eyes, finally managing to get a handle on herself in the slightest bit for the first time in what felt like days.
"I didn't know... I didn't.." Trailing off she brushed off her cheeks wet cheeks with her bare arm, pushing back her messy hair and trying to pull it together. "I did everything I shouldn't. Like I always.. do. Because.. I didn't think. I didn't know. It was so far from my mind." Taking a deep breath she finally turned her head the slightest bit to look at her friend.
"My body dealing with something that isn't right? Well, I'm what's not right, Dora."