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Lenora Urquhart (notlenora) wrote in vrrpg,
@ 2017-03-15 00:12:00

Entry tags:

char: alec urquhart, char: nora urquhart, char: pandora montgomery, char: terence higgs, location: network, time: 2009 03

Network: Various Messages
Who: Nora, Dora, Terence, Alec
What: Stuff and Things
When: Tuesday, mid morning
Warnings: None so far
Public/Private: Private

MM to Dora 10:17 AM: I feel like the worst girlfriend in the entire world.

MM to Terence 10:26 AM: Hey.

MM to Alec 10:50 AM: I love you. I'm really sorry about the other night.

MM to Oliver 1:21 PM: Did you ever stop wanting to kill your brother?

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	alec_urquhart 2017-03-15 03:01 am UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 10:53am: You have nothing to apologize for, love MM to Nora 10:53am: I know how much this shit with Roger has been stressing you out MM to Nora 10:54am: It's not like I hold this against you (Reply to this) (Thread)

	notlenora 2017-03-15 06:59 am UTC (link)
	MM to Alec 10:56 AM: I know you don't. Because you're unbelievably amazing. MM to Alec 10:58 PM: He... told me the reason he didn't want to be around me any more is because he's in love with me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alec_urquhart 2017-03-15 11:34 am UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 11:00am: I know MM to Nora 11:00am: I'm sorry you're having to deal with this (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notlenora 2017-03-15 11:45 am UTC (link)
	MM to Alec 11:02 AM: I just don't know what to do anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alec_urquhart 2017-03-15 02:59 pm UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 11:04am: What do you mean? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notlenora 2017-03-15 03:28 pm UTC (link)
	MM to Alec 11:08 AM: Maybe the only rational thing to do is for Roger and I to erase each other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alec_urquhart 2017-03-15 04:47 pm UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 11:08am: Unfortunately for both of you, it's not an option MM to Nora 11:09am: Short of finding a very capable obliviator, there's just no way. You'd take way less long because your mind isn't as resistant, but it would still take years and hundreds of sessions. He's played too large a part of your life MM to Nora 11:09am: I'm sorry (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	terryhiggs 2017-03-15 03:06 am UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 10:29am: Hey hey MM to Nora 10:29am: Haven't heard from you in a while ;) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	notlenora 2017-03-15 07:00 am UTC (link)
	MM to Terence 10:32 AM: Yeah.. sorry about that. Things have been sort of insane. MM to Terence 10:33 AM: You doing alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

terryhiggs
2017-03-15 11:41 am UTC (link)

MM to Nora 10:34am: In a good way, I hope ;)
MM to Nora 10:34am: Oh, you know, it's the usual
MM to Nora 10:35am: My girl's in Scotland and busier than ever, so my life has turned into all quidditch all the time
MM to Nora 10:35am: But judging from your texts I get the feeling that I should be asking you that
MM to Nora 10:36am: I know you hate it when I ask, but how have you been holding up?

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	notlenora 2017-03-15 11:51 am UTC (link)
	MM to Terence 10:40 AM: My abusive ex made an appearance and tried to kidnap me. Roger and Alec found me. Roger told me he loved me and that's why he can't be around me. MM to Terence 10:42 AM: just... fuck. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

terryhiggs
2017-03-15 01:31 pm UTC (link)

MM to Nora 10:42am: Oh, so NOW he fucking figures it out
MM to Nora 10:43am: I tried to tell him back in the hospital
MM to Nora 10:43am: Denied it of course
MM to Nora 10:43am: Selfish prick
MM to Nora 10:44am: You don't disappear on someone who just saved your life for a month with no communication and then when you come back to find them happy decide that seeing the person you love happy is just too much for you to fucking handle
MM to Nora 10:45am: What the hell, Roger
MM to Nora 10:45am: If he really loves you he's sure got a shitty way of showing it
MM to Nora 10:47am: Because if this was me and Silvie and she was off dancing happily into the sunset with Flint or some other dude, yeah I'd be fucking heartbroken, but my number one priority would be still getting to be her friend. Just getting to be around her would be enough. Her happiness is more important to me than my selfish ass needs or my heartbreak. It's always been
MM to Nora 10:47am: I don't give a shit if his iddle widdle feelings have been hurt
MM to Nora 10:48am: It's like this is the first time this jackass is learning that actions have fucking consequences
MM to Nora 10:48am: "baby's first regrets"
MM to Nora 10:48am: Fuck, he needs to stop pretending he's made out of fucking porcelain after deciding to act like a jackass
MM to Nora 10:49am: Asshole

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notlenora
2017-03-15 01:55 pm UTC (link)

MM to Terence 10:52 AM: I have to admit, I don't know what reaction I was expecting but, wow, Terence.
MM to Terence 10:53 AM: I just... don't know what to do. Like where do I go from here? Is there even a good answer to that question?
MM to Terence 10:54 AM: He's going through a lot right now, and I get it. I do. I just... didn't think this would make it impossible for us to be friends. I thought we were stronger than this.

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	pandacharms 2017-03-15 10:54 am UTC (link)
	MM to Nora 10:20am: First off, you're not. I'm probably awarded that position MM to Nora 10:20am: but what's wrong? Do you want me to come over? (Reply to this) (Thread)

notlenora
2017-03-15 11:49 am UTC (link)

MM to Dora 10:22 AM: Roger told me he loved me when I was in the hospital, and that's why we can't be friends anymore. And I hate it and it hurts and I don't know what the answer is.
MM to Dora 10:24 AM: I feel like I'm hurting Alec with all of this, and he doesn't deserve it. I love him, I'd never leave him in a million years unless he tossed me out first, but I'm sure this all fucking sucks for him.
MM to Dora 10:25 AM: I also don't want to lose Roger. He's been my best friend since we were in school, over a decade. But if being my friend hurts him, the only kind thing to do is let him go.
MM to Dora 10:27 AM: But I'm selfish, and I don't want to lose him either. I just... I can't do this.

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pandacharms
2017-03-15 12:01 pm UTC (link)

MM to Nora 10:30am: it might suck for Alec, but he knows exactly how you feel, love. Keep telling him, keep showing him. It doesn't make you a bad girlfriend. It only shows something hard is going on and you're both dealing with it
MM to Nora 10:31am: I understand you don't want to lose Roger as a friend, and I think if he were being a proper friend he'd find a way to move past it without hurting you
MM to Nora 10:31am: that being said, you can't control his actions. You can be there if he decides to come back. You can even reach out periodically. It isn't your fault that he decided now that he's in love with you and that he apparently can't handle it. That's his problem, not yours.
MM to Nora 10:32am: you can do this. You're smart and much stronger than you think and you have me and Alec and even Ewan if you need us. We love you.

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notlenora
2017-03-15 12:37 pm UTC (link)

MM to Dora 10:35 AM: I just don't want to make things hard for him. I want to make him happy, and things easier.
MM to Dora 10:36 AM: It's not that simple, love. I don't think he wants to be a bad friend or that he can just flip a switch and be a proper friend. He wouldn't have to be in intensive therapy if something wasn't really wrong.
MM to Dora 10:38 PM: and I don't feel strong or smart. I just got my ass handed to me by my ex recently so I'm feeling sort of down in they regard...
MM to Dora 10:39 PM: I love you too. Always. How's the parasite?

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pandacharms
2017-03-15 12:45 pm UTC (link)

MM to Nora 10:40am: you do make him happy. And things will get easier.
MM to Nora 10:40am: I know, but it's still not your fault. Please stop blaming yourself.
MM to Nora 10:41am: you are tho. Hell you've found a way to keep my drinking safely under control while pregnant, love. And I'm going to coach you in a few very useful spells next time you're over. And maybe pay the ass hat a visit.
MM to Nora 10:43am: Always <3 it's growing. I'm officially having trouble finding anything to wear to hide the bump that I'm willing to be seen in in public. I've also thrown up twice and burst into tears twice today. I think Ewan is permanently traumatized by me. It's a wonder he ever comes home. But I think the little one must be doing okay since I'm getting so fat and emotional. It works that way, right?

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notlenora
2017-03-15 05:39 pm UTC (link)

MM to Dora 10:45 AM: I hope so.
MM to Dora 10:46 AM: It's hard not too. Maybe I should have expected this. I know you're right, but my brain... just doesn't let things go.
MM to Dora 10:48 AM: Heh. Last I heard, he was still in the hospital. Once he's discharged they're taking him back to prison. There will probably be a trial. I don't even want to fucking deal with thinking about it right now.
MM to Dora 10:49 AM: Well you can't be a hermit. Been there, done that, do not recommend. Which means eventually, you're going to have to let people see you pregnant. Want to go shopping soon? Find stuff you're more comfortable in? And he loves you, and you're pregnant with his child. He should be more than capable of dealing with the gross stuff.
MM to Dora 10:51 AM: I think so. I don't know. Shits a mystery to me.

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	MM to Nora 2:02pm olliewood_ 2017-03-15 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry was in practice. My desire to murder him only happens on days that end on 'y'. But then I'd miss him. Maybe. Why? Is he being a massive tool? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	MM to Oliver 2:05 PM notlenora 2017-03-15 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Hey, no need to apologize. And he hasn't done anything. I just... hadn't talked to you in a while, and I know last time there was that whole... thing. I guess. And stuff. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: MM to Nor 2:75 PM olliewood_ 2017-03-15 10:51 pm UTC (link)
	Whole...Thing? You okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	MM to Oliver 2:17 PM notlenora 2017-03-15 10:54 pm UTC (link)
	It's been a really long couple of weeks. Like... really, really long. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: MM to Nora 2:18 PM olliewood_ 2017-03-15 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. You're more of a storm cloud than usual when I've seen you; not that I've been out much (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	MM to Oliver 2:20 PM notlenora 2017-03-15 11:06 pm UTC (link)
	Guess that's what happens when your ex shows up to try and kidnap you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)