Allen Walker; Exorcist of the Black Order (belovedclown) wrote in voicesinmyhead, @ 2007-08-08 13:10:00 |
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Prompt #3 - What are your thoughts on love? [private]
No offense but you're very nosy. I'm serious, why do you want to know that? Its a topic I don't have time for. If I had been born normal maybe I would think about it. But as it stands? I'm busier making sure not to come home in a crate. Or a million pieces scraped into a small box which is the more likely of the two options. Exorcists don't last very long on average, especially when they might be marked to be deleted by the Earl. So really, love? Not interested. Family? Never got it. Foster family? Temporarily had it. Possibility of having a happy family? More likely to be in a coffin before I hit twenty two. Romantic happy things? ...I once thought about them when I was small enough to not see reality. Then master promptly smacked it out of me with a small, round, black hammer. Repeatedly.
Rinali keeps pushing me to open up to her and to not say cruel things with a smile. I don't wish to sound rude. But that will happen when master proclaims his women chasing days are over and swears off the booze. The bottom line here? I might like anyone else fancy having such a relationship one day, but its highly doubtful to ever occur. I refuse to let anyone that close. I made a grave mistake because of love once, I will never allow it to happen again.