iaintwildbill (iaintwildbill) wrote in voicesinmyhead, @ 2007-07-10 20:36:00 |
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Current mood: | loved |
Current music: | The Cowboy In Me - Tim McGraw |
Prompt #4 - Song
What song best describes you and why?
I dont know why I act the way I do
Like I aint got a single thing to lose
Sometimes Im my own worst enemy
I guess thats just the cowboy in me
There are times when I think Marcus was right about me. That with or without him, I'd be who I am. Some things are just meant ta be. Teaspoon calls it destiny, and he's said that if anyone was to ever have a destiny, it'd be me. That some people's lives are set before they're even born. Maybe that's what I am. It ain't as if I've tried ta change it neither. So maybe it's my fault. My mouth is alwyas gettin' me into trouble... and my friends are always gettin' me out.
I got a life that most would love to have
But sometimes I still wake up fightin mad
At where this road Im heading down might lead
I guess thats just the cowboy in me
It makes me angry, though. They shouldn't have ta do that for me! Hell... what would happen if one of 'em were ta get killed on account of me? There ain't no way in hell I'd let the man who killed my friend stand on this earth. And I know Emma would tell me I'm puttin' the cart before the horse, but these days it seems like I've got ta be worryin' more and more about 'em. I don't think I could live with that kinda weight on me.
The urge to run, the restlessness
The heart of stone I sometimes get
The things Ive done for foolish pride
The me thats never satisfied
The face thats in the mirror when I dont like what I see
I guess thats just the cowboy in me
There are times when I think I should leave the Express. I'm a danger to myself and to those people that have become my family. I don't like what I've started ta be, but I ain't rightly sure as how ta stop it. Maybe I cain't. But I know what they'd tell me if they heard me talkin' like this, too. They'd tell me that it ain't my choice. They want ta stand by me, 'cause they know I ain't the man in them books. They know, but I ain't so sure I do.
The urge to run, the restlessness
The heart of stone I sometimes get
The things Ive done for foolish pride
The me thats never satisfied
The face thats in the mirror when I dont like what I see
I guess thats just the cowboy in me
Hell, I can hear 'em now. Hear what they'd be sayin' to me. Teaspoon'd be tellin' me that we're family and family sticks together. Kid would back him up on it, 'cause that's what he does. Buck would say somethin' about how the Lakota don't ever abandon their own without good reason and Cody would have some smart comment about how boring it would be without me around to stir up trouble. Ike would probably sign something to Buck that would make me smile and Lou...
Girl I know theres times you must have thought
There aint a line youve drawn I havent crossed
But you set your mind to see this love on through
I guess thats just the cowboy in you
Lou would be mad as hell and not sayin' a word. She does that sometimes. She ain't the most talkative person when it comes ta the group, but she'd find me later. Probably out shootin' cans or just sittin' on the porch and she'd tell me then exactly what she thought about my cockamamie idea of leavin'. Tell me it ain't my choice ta make and that she wasn't gonna let me leave. I'd yell at her and she'd give me that look that immediately makes me feel like the lowest dog in the world for hurtin' her. I'd apologize, but she'd just leave me ta think about what an idiot I'm bein'.
We ride and never worry about the fall
I guess thats just the cowboy in us all
They are my family. And there ain't a thing in the world they wouldn't do for me. They certainly ain't about ta leave me just 'cause things are tough. And I ain't leavin' them, either. Come hell or high water, we're gonna ride together until they tear us apart.