iaintwildbill (iaintwildbill) wrote in voicesinmyhead, @ 2007-07-05 16:47:00 |
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Current mood: | contemplative |
Current music: | Slow Motion - Big and Rich |
Prompt #3 - Love
I can tell ya one thing about love. It don't make any sense.
When I was younger, I fell in love with a girl named Claire Enright. She was smart and beautiful and unfortunately, the daughter of an evil man who I simply called The Judge. When I left home, the Judge took me in and gave me a home and a job. 'Course, I didn't know that he was raisin' me to be a killer and crook. But Claire wasn't like her daddy. She tried to teach me to read and made sure that I had someone to talk to when I needed it. She was a good woman. I miss her to this day, and I curse her daddy for costing her her life. She deserved better than death at the hands of her daddy's men.
Then, after I came here to Sweetwater, I thought I fell in love with Emma. Emma takes care of us here boys and makes sure we got food in our stomachs and a bed under our backs. She's an amazing lady and I had strong feelings about her. Turns out those feelings weren't nothin' more than a whole lotta respect and caring. She had to point it out to me, of course, 'cause I can be stubborn as a mule about that sort of thing, as you're about ta find out.
Sarah Downs. Just thinkin' about that woman... stirs a whole lotta things up in me that didn't exist before her. A big part of me still thinks that she loved me, even after she conned me into fallin' for her and framed me for her husband's murder. You cain't make up the look you get in your eyes when you really love somebody. It just don't work. I don't think I'll ever be able ta forgive her for what she did to me, but I can't rightly say as I hate her, either. Maybe I'm just seven kinds of fool for it, but I think if things had been different, she and I coulda really had somethin' special. I'd have died for her, and almost did. There's only one other woman on this earth I could say that about now.
*locked from Lou and Kid*
Louise McCloud. Woman can give ya fits of all kinds, that's for sure. I admire everything about her. Her stubbornness, her ability. She rides better than any of us, 'cept maybe Ike. Plus, underneath all the man's clothes and the trail dust, she's amazingly beautiful. Those eyes could reach into a man's soul and tear everything out of it. I don't really know how it happened, that I came ta care so much about her. I mean, I guess I DO. We live together, eat together, sleep... well, ya know what I mean. But you'd think it'd be a brotherly thing with her and I, but it just ain't. It's more than that. Maybe 'cause I see how the Kid treats her. It ain't right. But... I don't know. There's gotta be more to it than that, right?
*unlocked*
Truthfully, I ain't sure what I think about it. I just know that as good as it can feel, sometimes it huurts just as much. Lovin' someone and not bein' able to have 'em... it's not somethin' I really like livin' with. I guess you just get used to it.