Family don't mean what it used to. Used to mean there was always someone who had yer back, no matter what. Even if he hated you, even if he'd just beat the crap out of you himself the night before. Had a family, long ago. Disfunctional as they come, true, but we had our moments. Moments filled with blood and fear and laughter and sex. Know I should feel bad about 'em and I do. Mostly. Bad about the souls we slaughtered yeah, but not bad about the laughter. Not bad about the feeling of family. Surely not about the sex! Don't know if it would've been the same without the bloodshed, though.
Family is - can be - everything. The reason to wake up and the reason its so easy to sleep soundly. They can also be the reason you have a headache that no amount of blood can cure.
And fucked up? Okay, listen to this. My grandmother made my father, right? My father made this other bugger who was gone before I came around so he don't count for shit. Then old Dad makes me and then Drusilla, who's my sister, right? You following along? (Oh, and uh, if ya happen to see Buffy, don't tell her this. I let her think Dru was me mum cuz its not kosher to tell a bird you were turned by another bloke when yer tryin' to get in 'er knickers, right? So mum's the word to the Slayer.) Anyway - where was I? Oh yeah, Dru's my sis - and a right fine shag - and then Dad goes and kills Grandmum. So then some lawyer gits bring Darla, that's Grandmum, back from... wherever vampires go when they're dust. But she's human. And dyin' o' somethin' or other, I never cared enough to ask; Darla was a right bitch. So she wants Angel to vamp 'er, but he won't do it. Havin' a soul ain't as easy as it sounds, don' go tryin' this at home, kiddies. So the gits find my Dark Princess - also my sister, don't forget, and have her re-vamp Grandmum. So my sister is my Grandmum's mum - how's that for a bucket of shit? And wait - there's more. Vamped Darla and souled poofter do the horizontal mambo and what do you know, first vampire conception in the history o' the world! So my dad had a baby with my grandmum, making the kid my brother, my uncle, my great-uncle and my grand-nephew!!
Yup, family's fucked up all right.
I guess family is who you go to when you don't know where else to go. When yer big plans don't work out or ya realise maybe ya didn't get the girl after all. Ya don't have to like 'em and they don't have to like you - but they'll take ya in, cuz that's what family does. Angel, I guess, is all the family I got left now. Well, Red, o' course. Gave me comfort when she shouldn't have, made me think diff'rently about a few things. That's why I went there. Knew Rupes would have his reservations, but Red, yeah, she'd let me in. And she did. Makes me wonder why I ever... no use thinkin' o' things that'll never be.
But maybe I should start thinkin' 'bout how I want them to be in th' future. Now where did Andrew say the witch had gone...