Prompt #16 What moment from your life do you wish you could re-live again? What moment from your life do you wish you could re-live again?
There's only one moment I really want to relive, the moment I shot Benny. Yeah I shot my best friend, I nearly killed him. I used to have a lot of nightmares about it. I mean a lot. I used to wake up in cold sweats, some nights I think I shouted, Ma never said but I think I did. I still have them sometimes just seeing Fraser fall onto to the platform.
Maybe I should explain a bit. Fraser meets this woman he used to know, well he arrested her years ago, and they spend three days in his apartment. I think you can work out what. Except she’s not the woman he thinks she is. She’s setting him up to take the fall for this bank job she did, the money was never found. Then she makes it seem like he murdered her accomplice. She really hated him. She tried to get me implicated too but Benny found the key she planted (the key that would open a locker full of stolen money) so he decides to set her up.
We end up at the station where the locker is and she panics when we get there, she starts shooting. Fraser chases her to the platform. I stay behind because she’s dropped the case full of stolen money and it’s going everywhere and I have to stop it. I don’t what happened between Fraser and her on the platform but by the time I got there she’s on the train and I see Fraser look at me and he starts running, running to her.
He keeps looking at me and then at her. I don’t know if he’s trying to choose between the two of us or what but then I look at her and I see a gun. I swear I saw a gun. You don’t know how many times I saw a gun. So my finger is on the trigger. I was aiming for her, at least I thought I was, but the moment I pull the trigger I know what've done. I shot Fraser, I shot Benny, I shot my best friend.
I’d want to go back, to just not shoot at all. To tell myself to let Fraser go because at least then he’d be alive and healthy and not spending weeks in a hospital battling for his life and his mobility. Everything changes in that moment and I’d love the chance to change it, to save Benny. To not take the shot.