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Instant Release... [04 Oct 2005|11:05pm]

[ mood | creative ]
[ music | VNV Nation ]

Wings stretched and frozen in time,
reminds of so many selfish cries.

Each of us flys against this straind called time,
trying to engrave ourselves into this epitemic of life.

Our wings have long since been tattered and torn,
carrying on after so many scorn.

Look to the future, your wings, your life,
and folow what your heart says in time.

Due what you must to flow with a new breeze,
and don't allow yourself the time to freeze.

- Vanpi


"Torture of Mind" [03 Oct 2005|02:52pm]

[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Gakt ]

"A poem I wrote a while back..."

The white walls seem to stain my face,
how long have I stared at it in this place.

Entering my inner soul,
death begins it's chase.

My mind is shut out from anything that’s around,
as the red blood hits the ground.

The cold feeling envelops my body,
a final playback to the same felling
that has plagued this soul until the time being.

Darkness slowly flows through this mind,
blacking out anything of the kind.

Drifting between two worlds,
I fall back upon the inevitable fate that forever folds,
twisting and turning ,
then finally burning the life it once held close.

Therefore life returns my soul to its place,
chaining my soul once again,
to just then begin its unforgiving chase.

These are the thoughts running through my mind,
as I try to pass the time.

This is the nonexistence of the living,
therefore what else is to be given.

I look out the small window in this padded cell,
trying to see if there’s anyone else out there
going through this same hell.

All this takes place in my mind
as I walk and watch others pass me by.

I walk into the night as darkness claims my surroundings,
and once again allow myself
to glide on my newly formed wings
as I turn and leave.

- Vanpi

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black heart [07 May 2005|07:20pm]

[ mood | blah ]
[ music | I want my life~smile empty soul ]

My heart bbeing blackened by the cold of my loneliness
The flame inside has slowly died
And now my tears turn into ice
Forgive me as i say that it's your fault
You never took the time to consider
It doesn't matter anymore
My heart is now black and my inside is nothing of what it was
Now all I cann feel is this..... anger........ pain......... and sorrow

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Blood Drips, Mouth Opens ... [03 Apr 2005|09:37am]

[ mood | awake ]
[ music | The Used ]

As I tasted your blood, my thoughts vanished into ur eyes, lost in your spirit.. What is this spell I have been uncased with? Defenses were down when I was impaled with ur rusty love blade, thrusting deeper into my chest, I feel weak, yet I still trust and beg for more! What was I doing? I thought to myself, and I took a deep breath of her, and knew that I could lie here forever! Tasting and feeding her desires of lust and pure unadulterated love! I felt something come over me, like a beast that wants to finish it's dinner. But to me this is more than sex, how can I feel alive, just from that? Days have gone bye, yet only moments pass, as I stared into those eyes that entrapped me once before. Nothing feels wrong, so something must not be right.. "I have nothing to worry about" she said, as I fucked her with my mind. She was touching her self, and asking me to come closer. So I opened my mouth and ate her fucking throat! Because I am the Lycan that lurks in the dark. A figment of your darkest dreams, something so real, it seems fake. A whisper that you thought you heard. A shadow in the conner of your eye. I am not there, I am dead and dreaming.... Come back to me.... Cum here in my mouth, as I taste ur every shiver!
I won't keep you long..
I'll keep you Forever! ---- Matt ©


Short enough for me.. [03 Apr 2005|08:30am]

[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Funeral For A Friend ]

" I Wish I Was, A Tear In Your Eye, So I Could Fall Down Your Check, And Die On Your Lips "

--- Matt ©


Time to go [01 Mar 2005|08:18am]


"Alone I walk in the deepest night
Waiting for this time of waiting
To finally come to an end

I walk one way and I crush another
I walk away and I fall asunder
I walk alone and I make my blunder

I must survive
I have no choice
My health is waning
I can wait no longer

Sirens and car accidents
murderous couples screaming
Coming together in this urban symphony
Wearing, tearing on my sanity

I must be free of here
I must be free of hate
I must be free of this horrible place

I will strike my path
I will walk my road
Even if I'm torn in two

My mind screams yes
My heart says no
My body just needs peace
My soul cares not
as long as my goal is met

I am truely sorry it has to be this way
Although you should have seen it coming
We have to leave you high and dry
Just so we can survive

I have fought for you
On several occasions
Consider this a blessing in disguise

I've been patient
I've been forgiving
I just hope you will understand

It's time to go now
It's time to say your goodbyes


There will be others
To share the burden with you
Do not fall
Do not falter
For then you will be truely done for"


No Place Like Home [25 Feb 2005|07:37pm]

My house is always cold.
Bodies of three, but you're still lonely.
My house is always loud.
Screaming and yelling, it never goes away.
My house is always dark.
Hide in the shadows, where no one can see.
My house is almost dead.

My house is where I'll stay.

Poem [07 Jan 2005|08:34am]

[ mood | LA! ]
[ music | The Ringing of the liberty bell ]

Poem below. I posted it in my journal a while back. This is the finished version of it.

Comments, Rants, critiques, cheese sandwiches?

Sound of Liberation )


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[06 Jan 2005|06:09pm]

[ mood | busy ]
[ music | AFI- Brownie Bottom Sundae ]

poem )

Any constructive criticism, random comments and death threats welcome.

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Hello? [03 Jan 2005|05:47pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | willy mason-oxygen ]

This is a poetry community, right? I do poetry... but is anyone still using this?

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Ever wish? [11 Dec 2004|04:02pm]

[ mood | Cuddly ]

Have you ever wished you were something else?
Just to escape the normal bullshit of life.

Personally I think a house cat would be best choice,
for any get away.

You pick me up and pet me all over
And purring is the only thing,
That you require from me

Children pick me up
Out of love, and curiosity
Squeezing me to tight yet,
completely out of affection

Cuddled pleased and loved
by those around me
Without a care

What better life than this?


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hmmm.... *furrows brow* [09 Dec 2004|03:05am]


What is going on lately? It's like, all of the communitys have DIED.


*le sigh*.

InsaneJournal isn't updated much anymore. It sux. I used to have to depend on it everyday to help get me through, now NO ONE UPDATES, So I have ran to Digital Expressions and taken a liking to that place.

*le sigh*.

C'mon people.


and i'll...i'll...i'll give you all a cookie! erm, a fake cookie! *holds out tray of cookies* these won't be warm and chewy for long! COME GET EM' BEFORE THEY START MOLDING.

3 Optical Visions

[16 Oct 2004|11:35pm]

[ mood | confused ]

is this place still alive??????

(ps somethings going on with the backround i dunno if its just my computer but it messed up)

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Poem you MUST all read... [13 Sep 2004|10:26pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Hooverphonic~Eden ]

Here is a link to the poem you must all read

The Circle of Fear Awaits Me

By the way this current background for Visions in grey makes it very hard to read the text on the sight.


Me Again [28 Aug 2004|08:34pm]

[ mood | blah ]

I forgot to mention on the other post that the only people who can comment on your entries, are registered users. I did this because on a journal I'm in, someone posted a comment anonymously and it was a mean comment, and I don't want that to happen hear. I figure, if someone wants to be rude, then you should at least get the chance to justify yourself and have it be known. Thats about it. Oh! I'm making buttons too!. I thinks it fun its going to be linking all this junk together so you can post the buttons right on your profile linking to this community. If you want one that is. I'm just making them for fun.

- Eurotrash


Question [26 Aug 2004|12:03am]

I know this isn't a regular post, but since I'm the maintainer. I can do this.

If you've noticed the whole layout of this community has changed on a couple of occasions.

What I'm wanting to know, is how you all would like this community to look. After about a week or so (depending on how much feed back I get) I'll post the top 3 ideas community icon and all that junk and we'll vote. Then yet again, I'll change the format to the best of my ability.


- Eurotrash
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[24 Aug 2004|06:25am]


I trust with my soul
And you trust with your life
When your bones are broken
I'll still seem all right
On the outside right as rain
But I'm all broken up inside again

Just a little to late to save me
In the end it wasn't brave of me
I tried and tried but it wasn't good enough
You told me so; I knew it wasn't good enough

Once again deprived of what saved me
Once again deprived of what made me

Your eye is swollen
Black and blue
Your arm is twisted
But I'm good as new
My sprits worn
My hopes are dim
And yet and yet and yet again…

Just a little to late to save me
In the end it wasn't brave of me
I tried and tried but it wasn't good enough
You told me so; I knew it wasn't good enough
Just a little too confident
Just a little too plain
Just too much just like


I've written better but, alas, writers block is gone so take what you can get, mm?
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[22 Aug 2004|11:52am]

[ mood | irritated ]

This Is Life
So this is life huh?
Is it always this bad
It is always this depressing
Why are you so mad?

It was a mistake made
Its now in the past
All the stuff you did
Why did I make it last?

You hurt me so much
You didnt even notice
Do you even love me?
What are your motives?

Are they to hurt me
Do as much damage as you can
If you really actually love me
Then be a fuckin' man!

This is one i wrote a few days ago.. tell me wacha think

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The Second Poem I wrote in years..be nice :P [22 Aug 2004|04:02am]

[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | Theater Of Tragedy - The Masquerader And Phoenix ]

If only I could replace you! - By Lycanthropy

Sitting here remembering that day,
The day you left me here.
All alone in a world so empty.

I was so happy never showed any fear.
Now the thought of it, burns my eyes with tears!
Thinking of you, and dreaming of your kiss.
The smell of your perfume...

I whipped the fog off the mirror.
And you were there staring back at me.
So beautiful and free happily without me.
You tell me to forget the times that were true.

But every where I turn there is a picture of you!
Haunting me and following me,
There to remind me of the time
I wished it was me instead of you!

I looked at you,
as my heart skipped a beat.
I didn't know what to say,
I could hardly move my feet.

I told you how special you were to me,
And somehow I knew.
Somehow I felt these emotions were true.
Feelings of release, freedom happiness not despair.

Surprisingly enough
you felt this way too.
you kissed me, and whispered "I love you!"
Faded away, into the Mirror...

It feels as if that Years have passed.
Can not forget the day I wished it was me, instead of you!

Everything is so clear to me.
And I can see this as if it was yesterday.

When you looked into my eyes,
I could feel your soul peering into mine.
Sometimes when it was quite I could read your mind, you told me to get outta your head.

You made me laugh, no matter how I felt,
I thought that was magic, forget my past.
No matter what has happened to me, this is what will last, it was with you  love I felt.

I just can't let go, and go on any more.
I feel as if the world has stopped,
And stared at me, I'm in the spot light.
Remembering that night I was filled with fright.

The lights flashed as so did my life.
everything got blurry as I ran to you.
The screams of brakes and noise fill my head,
I felt no fear as I raced to you.

I will never forget that sound of sirens,
The alarm of sound, your screams, and fear.
The smile on your face as you died in my arms.
Remembering what you said, "I will forever Love you!"

World of pain, anger and sadness is what I am delt.
From myself possibly, in a world without you,
I am left with just me.
Nostalgic with tears I think of your smile.

In my room,
I yearn for you, and your touch!
The simple things in life, I miss so fucking much!
I can't change the past, all I can do is dream.

Of those feelings, and what it was to me,
To have you so close, and hold, I Cherish.
I miss you so VERY much!
But if I had one thing to say, it would be...

I wish it was me instead of you !!


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