"Because I don't like seeing my friends get hurt! It's too painful. I was afraid if another attack happened and more people died... I just thought it would be easier if I wasn't around to witness it." Because I've become such a weak, selfish person, it seems, Alicia wanted to add.
Ducking her head down in embarrassment, she mumbled, "It would be easier that way." She didn't want to admit that she had definitely considered doing just that.
Lifting her head back up and averting her gaze, Alicia rested her chin on the pillow. "I really need to think things through some more, but... I don't think that will happen."