Serefishar
It may be a poor choice of words, but it's one I'll stand by. I don't know these shadowy Others who conspired to take your abilities. I know you as you are here. And to speak more plainly, I have a particular dislike for those who take and use laterally without consent.
You're a whole person with or without someone's magical interference, but there's no shame in wishing to be whole. Anyone who tells you otherwise just wants you partial and mastered, in my unfortunate experience.