Doc | Michael
More than I can easily explain. The man I looked up to most of my life that I loved and thought of as family thought very little of me. He lied to make me seem more of a villain than I was and, I suppose, paint himself in more flattering light. I suppose it put things in perspective for me. The life I led before is not the one I wish to continue living. I want something more peaceful, something better than I had. I tried to change the future for the Earps, Hollidays, and Clantons. Instead nothing changed and people are still dead for no particular reason. Perhaps Wyatt was not wrong about my character or who I was, but he was no better man than I. None of us were. It cannot be helped.
It is hard not to carry around the weight of the past and the present.