"It's never gonna get easier. When we were hopeful and naive, like last year, we used to think that there was some end in sight, a life of peace and - good shit. Where we could actually see the difference we were trying to make. You said you saw a light at the end of the tunnel," he laughed. "And I told you it was Hellfire. Remember? I was right. But we kept going anyway. That's why the little shit is important, because the big picture sucks ass."
He tried. He wasn't fully up on the situation and was kind of impressed that he thought that Dean was telling him about a girl. Well, Jo. She was still a girl even though she was Jo. "So maybe explore that and don't dwell on how it might have made you feel. You might just be relieved or glad that your friend came back. Happiness is a foreign feeling, I know, but it's a possibility."