essek (thelyss) widogast is problemagic ✨ (shadowhand) wrote in valloic,
Both, if that makes sense. It hurt at first -- much was said about me, none of which was inherently untrue. It being true made it no easier to witness.
It did help, though. I know that six or seven months isn't necessarily enough time to entirely undo a century of becoming who I was, but I know more than ever that I want to continue to try. You know my apprehension of what I might be doing without all of your influence back home. I cannot control that, but I can control what I do here. I have that ability.