Going to try. I have somewhat of an understanding what psychic is so imagine if what you can do is just gone one day. Like all of life just lost it's song. And you try and live with that, and the choice that caused it until one day you're brought back into society as a whole because things have gone drastically wrong.
And the your ability comes back. But you're told, by your mentors, you are wrong. You don't actually use your own ability anymore. You piggyback on others, along with the fact you are now using death as a fuel. Your mentors also tell you you will kill this ability not just for yourself, but for everyone like you.
This is what happened to me, but I used The Force. They call me a Wound. There's a good chance you can help me if I need it but you never know.