essek (thelyss) widogast is problemagic ✨ (shadowhand) wrote in valloic,
THELYSSES
That isn't an easy question to answer. I have been this version of myself for so long. I have been trying to make changes. I teach magic to others, because I don't want to see them go down the path of isolation and solitude that I did, which only led to anger and hubris. I am trying to be honest, which isn't always easy as I wear lies and subterfuge as easily as I did my mantle back home. They don't feel nearly big enough to make up for the hurt I have caused, though.
[...] In truth, the main indicator I have had that I must be on a good path forward has been Caleb. I do not know that he would be with me if he didn't at least have hope for me.