If it helps, so many of them are really nice. If you can get passed freaking out or rambling at them. The network makes it a little easier. You can freak out in private where they can't see it. Unless they're psychic or probably a Jedi. They can probably tell.
That's fine. I can't say I understand much about it either but I know it's safe. I've been doing it kind of daily for the past few weeks.
I honestly don't think it will interfere too much though I'm not sure how it will manifest in the transformation. You can always give it a try and see what happens. If it turns out being something you're uncomfortable with or something you feel might hinder you too much they can turn you back and you can help us out up here.