๐๐๐ ๐ธ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ค๐ฅ (thearchivist) wrote in valloic, |
I didnโt know what was happening until it was far too late. Jonah needed that for his plan to succeed. And maybe I never had a chance. Maybe this was always going to happen from the moment I read my first statement. Maybe I should have told him I was under qualified for the job. I donโt know.
It all just happened so fast. And suddenly Sasha was dead and Tim was dead and it was all too much. I wish I could have done something differently but Jonah knew what buttons to push. I mean...he used Martin to mark me with the Lonely. And maybe if Iโd just given up on him the world would still be here. But it was Martin. And I canโt...Iโm going to say something very selfish and I hope you wonโt judge me. I would damn the world and make myself a monster a hundred times over to keep Martin safe.
Iโve really missed you, Georgie and Iโm sorry. For everything.
Presumably you would. If you have another horror to discuss. The tape recorders seem to be an extension of the Beholding. They just pop up. Iโm almost fond of them at this point. In the way that one becomes fond of a roomba. If the door is yellow and unexpected, donโt knock on it and donโt open it. I donโt know that Helen could just come here unless sheโs specifically brought but best not to chance it.