Archerons Only
I'm not really someone who should be speaking of love. I've had someone who [...] wouldn't love me, and someone who [...] was forced to. But Nesta, if I know anything it's that you deserve to be happy. Whatever that looks like for you, whether it's surrounded by piles of books and money and you're independent, or surrounded by piles of books and money and you're with someone, you deserve happiness.
I like Cassian. I think he's kind, and patient, and brave, and if half the things Azriel says about him are half true, he's a good man. He clearly cares about you, which isn't the only reason to give someone a chance, but I hate thinking you're hurting yourself to prove something.