πππ πΈπ£ππππ§ππ€π₯ (thearchivist) wrote in valloic,
jon / georgie.
I couldn't Quit, Georgie. None of us could. Tim tried and he just couldn't. We were all tied to the Eye and none of us could stop it. And then when I found the way...do you know that I almost couldn't read that statement. I had to...force myself. Because it knew. And it didn't want me to know.
I would have done it. Severed the connection. I asked Martin...it doesn't matter what I asked Martin. But I'm not strong, Georgie. And I was alone. And I...maybe I should have done. Maybe it would have stopped all of this.
Everyone just expected me to know the right thing to do. But they had all pulled away and there was no one there. And that's my own fault. I know that I screwed up and Tim was dead and Daisy was gone until she wasn't. And...I woke up and it had been six months and everyone was just...gone.
And then things started changing and I couldn't stop it. I know I'm...a monster. I know that. You were right. And I can't change that. But I'm not sure I could have managed cutting myself off from it on my own. If I even could have and survived. But maybe death would have been preferable to what happened. I'm sure the others would think so.
Take the time you need. As much as you need. Just...let me know if you need anything. Please.