essek (thelyss) widogast is problemagic ✨ (shadowhand) wrote in valloic,
Shadowgast I --Oh.
It's not It feels [...] complex. I am very happy here and I have acknowledged since our arrival that this is a second chance and I have been trying very hard not to squander it, but I am not always convinced that I deserve it and there is a guilt there, at times. I have been given some very good things here, like friends and a job that I genuinely enjoy and you, the two of as we are right now. It is a good that seems to be too good at times for the likes of me.
So yes, sometimes I feel like I should leave, if that possibility were given, because I should accept the repercussions of my actions, whatever they might have ended up being. Perhaps the repercussions were nothing, perhaps not.
But if it were to allow myself to be selfish? No, I would not leave. Especially not without you.