losers house.
Usually if I ran the game I was a wizard, and if I was just playing I was a cleric. So fireballs or healing!
[Eddie] We're the youngest Boomers at least.
It's not though. You're a good person, and you deserved better. I mean it's good that you got through it and still came out okay, but it's not okay that you had to.
I don't know. Kind of? I've just been thinking about stuff. At home, everyone had girlfriends - or boyfriends when they were girls - and I didn't. I just wanted us to go back to the way stuff was before I was in the Upside Down and everything got weird. But they all changed and were more interested in stuff with their girlfriends. And that was normal! It wasn't their fault I wasn't. But I guess I just didn't think about it as anything other than me being too weird or acting like a kid when they all grew up or something.
But lately I just notice guys things. And I think maybe it's because I'm like you, and Richie or Bill and Stan. But maybe I DID notice and I didn't realize it but the person I noticed did and that's part of why they didn't really want to be around me that much?
And it's dumb, since I notice people who are older and aren't going to like me anyway and I don't think I really want them to because I wouldn't know what to do. But I feel a little bad because I think if I realized this stuff at home it wouldn't matter. Because home isn't like here and I'd just have to pretend I didn't know it about myself and I think that'd be worse than not knowing what to do or say or having it not matter since it's not like I'm going to do anything about it? But I still feel bad for not wanting to be home more, even though I miss my mom and Jonathan. And my friends but I wasn't with them anymore anyway. And I don't even really hope they come here because I don't know if they'd be like you are about me being this way?
That didn't make any sense, did it? Sorry. It's all pretty stupid. And not even a question. Sorry.