I had more, once. My son disappeared from here a few months back. My husband came with me the first time only for a few weeks. It's a mixed bag of feelings, but I find them to be positive for the most part. I've a chance to know my daughter after she was taken from me as an infant - and as of right now, that is a gift only Vallo has been able to give me. I'll embrace it for as long as I can.
And the baby giggles I've been getting lately from my grandchild definitely make it sweeter.