Our perception of time would differ, I suppose. I have been reminded that I am young, for being on my first life and for the actual years I have been alive, for so long that it is sometimes difficult to put into perspective that I am not old to others. That isn't the point of this, though, I apologize.
My past dalliances were not complex or tied to any emotions, which I'm sure cannot be all too surprising given my lack of friends or connections. That is why I have these nerves, though. This is very new for me. I have experience with the physical aspects, but not with actually enjoying someone's company, liking someone. I don't do well in not knowing, so I overthink. It is probably why it took that many glasses of alcohol before I could actually stop overthinking long enough to kiss you in the first place.