Blackthorns
I know what you mean. Different kinds of love feel different. But they all mark you in some way. My love for Emma is a part of me now. She's a part of me, even though we're not parabatai anymore. I miss her like I'd miss my own soul.
It's not a bad thing. That feeling in your chest. Even though it's terrifying and it hurts sometimes. It's worth it. It can be worth it if you want it to be.