𝕊𝕢𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕃𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕥 (dotdotdot) wrote in valloic, |
Felt kind of like I did.
Look. I don't really talk much. Not about important stuff. But...here it goes.
Edea and Cid meant well. And I think they did care, in a way. But something happened when I was pretty young. Time...bullshit. And it convinced them that I was going to be the one to save everything one day. So they...made sure I'd be capable of it. Set up Garden to train us. To train me. And raised me to fight. But they never explained why or what they were going to expect. And then when the time came and everything went to shit, they just shoved everything on me. The responsibility and the pressure and...all of it. I was the one who had to make sure everyone was going to come out the other side.
And they never stopped to think that the reason it was me...the reason it had to be me...was because they'd never planned for anything else. That it was this...self-fulfilling prophecy. They always assumed I was going to save the day, and then I had to because there was nobody else to do it. Nobody else equipped to do it. Nobody who should have been handling it was capable of it. I was seventeen and I suddenly had the weight of everything on me.
Then Hydaelyn called me and it was a bunch more...weight and destiny and responsibility. Saving all these worlds and if you fuck up...it's a whole world lost. So don't fuck up. Don't let yourself be weak. Don't lose focus. Be a soldier first and everything else...never.
So I'm not used to leaning on people. Or talking about how I feel. Or having someone who has my back. Because I never have. I had my team, and they were good people, but I've always had to rely on myself so I could keep them safe. So I guess what I'm saying is...I'm glad I have someone now.