I do not believe I fully understood the deal when I made it or what I would lose. I lived. The strings were that I could not cause the witch harm without also causing myself harm. I learn that after I shot her. I lost everything after that. My best friend, my life. I was in the bottom of a well for 130 years and 3 months. The witch in question wanted to make sure that even if Wyatt did decide to forgive me, he could never find me. He died, so we never saw each other after our last meeting. Wynonna helped me bury her in a field of salt up to her head.