Diego/Vax
If I'm the one dispensing advice, we're both in trouble.
I don't know, though. I get the weird disparity between stuff you've actually lived and stuff that you've only lived because of some dump of memories from Vallo. My entire relationship back home, outside of me initially confessing my feelings, is in my head only because of Vallo telling me. I fought dragons and helped seal away an ascended evil god, but I also was working at the youth center, raising my sister, and having a different relationship than the one I chose back home so, yeah--sitting weird is definitely something I relate to.
But I guess I just tell myself I don't have to be either/or, but can be both, if I want to. Just because I'm here doesn't make that shit back home not real and vice versa, but I also don't think that I necessarily owe anyone anything until I'm ready, either. How much of that you might feel applies to you is something you have to decide, but just be patient with yourself while you're figuring it out.