ᴄᴀᴛʀᴀ ʀᴀɪɴʙᴏᴡꜰɪꜱᴛ-ᴍᴇᴏᴡᴍᴇᴏᴡ (hisses) wrote in valloic,
I think I just struggle with thinking I deserve forgiveness when in a lot of cases I'm sure I don't. It's weird to get it anyway, or to be around people willing to look past it and work towards some kind of understanding.
And I'm not complaining about it, definitely not. But getting out of the whole mindset where I think I need to be punished to earn forgiveness is hard too. Everything is hard, ugh.