essek (thelyss) widogast is problemagic ✨ (shadowhand) wrote in valloic,
I have been in a different, yet similar feeling situation--from your side of things, I am assuming. It was time, more than anything, that did it, I think. At least, that is what one of the people I had hurt most with my actions had suggested and I believe he was right. I needed time for myself, to understand why I wanted to change and how I could do it, but also to implement those changes and show that they weren't simply for show. Up until when I remember from back home and every moment I have spent in Vallo, I've tried to do exactly that.
I do not know you, nor do I know the details of your past, but I have to believe that if I can make strides to turn my life around, anyone can. And I have to believe that if my people can forgive me in whatever capacity they have, yours can, too. Unfortunately, it is not something that can necessarily be rushed, either. While we can put in the work, it is up to those we hurt to determine when they are ready to forgive. However, you seem to genuinely want to fix things. That is a very good sign.