Noctis Lucis Caelum (veggiehater) wrote in valloic, @ 2022-02-14 11:28:00 |
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You’re one of my first really good memories, did you know that? I’m sure there was other nice moments with Dad, especially before the prophecy, but when I think back to my first strong and happy memory, I think of you. I think of shaking your hand and I think of sneaking around the Citadel with you. Stargazing in the garden with the cats I wasn’t supposed to feed climbing into our laps. Begging you to read to me. Most of my happy childhood memories feature you. Your gentle green eyes and your soft smile. The little crease you get between your eyebrows when I want to do something stupid and you know it’s stupid but you know it’ll make me happy too.
You’re the most patient and loyal person I’ve ever known. You saw the best in me when I couldn’t. When I didn’t even want to try. You pulled me back from the edge after the Marilith, I hope you know. I think I could’ve shut down forever if it weren’t for you. You always make me want to be a better person. But just so there’s no confusion, you’re also stupidly hot and I remember the exact first day you started wearing suspenders with shirts that show off my necklace. Watching you in the kitchen is unbearably sexy. Your brain is even unbearably sexy. Whenever I can’t figure something out, I know I can come to you and we’ll get there together.
With you, nothing feels impossible.
I love you, Specs. Even more than I love cats.
Forever and Always,
Noctis
There was a time when I thought we’d never get along. It feels like a different lifetime now, but I can still remember thinking here is this guy who has to protect me with his life and all we do is butt heads. I didn’t understand how stressful it is to be a Shield. I was too self-absorbed. But as I got older, I saw how hard you worked. How devoted you were to your family. How solid you were in a crisis. You were my Shield, but you were also my rock, as cheesy at that is. I never questioned if you had my back, even when I wasn’t at my best. You’ve always made me feel safe.
When you got the scar on your face protecting me, I realized there might be worse things than failing in my duty. I could watch you die trying to get me there. Kinda knew I was in trouble already because you’d been hell on my hormones for years, but I was still pretty good at burying it. Now I get this stupid flip in my stomach every time I find you reading in the sun, looking handsome and relaxed. I reach for you after a bad dream and just having you there makes it ok. Getting you to laugh that big laugh of yours makes my whole dumb day. I can’t see a tattoo without thinking yours is better and then falling into a daydream gutter. I read a book and can’t wait to tell you about it.
My life is fuller with you in it. And not just cause you’re a giant.
I love you, big guy. Even more than I love fishing.
Forever and Always,
Noctis