What's restraint? Heh I suppose that's true. Though I would think after going through something bad is when one would want to make change or improvement.
A private journal? Do you like writing? Or having a place to pour your soul and secrets into? Maybe I feel like I don't/didn't have the time. Back home life was never dull. I'm just as flawed as the next person. I'm sure I could use some improvement in areas.