SABRINA.
I don't think you're supposed to. Or at least I don't think I'm going to either. Not entirely.
I think maybe it just changes? Things get a little easier, the way it feels like you'll never be able to breath again just loosens up a little. You remember they wouldn't want you to put your whole life on hold forever, because they love you and want you to be okay. Which isn't me saying to do that today or anything of course.