WWX/JXC
Lan Xichen, anyone who tells you that they have always trusted themselves is wrong or lying to themselves.
I was an orphan very young, and people do not say very nice things about orphans. Then when Jiang Fengmian took me in, things were said about my not being a Wei after all, but a secret Jiang Clanmaster had kept from his family. And that traveled to Madame Yu who It was not easy when I was young, but I had A-Cheng and my Shijie, so I learned to ignore others and care where it mattered, to trust in myself.
Sometimes it will hurt as a surprise. Sometimes you will doubt yourself. But it will get better, and your brother will always be here for you.