wanda.
No one can tell you how to say goodbye. Especially when things aren't able to happen in a more traditional way. But if you do settle on something, you have people here who will help, if you want them to.
Yes. And no. Sometimes it was nice to have a moment to remember even if I felt alone in my particular grief that I was not alone in grief itself. Sometimes I just wanted to be alone with my own thoughts and anger to it all.
I've lost a lot in my life, Wanda - people, things, parts of myself - I know you have too. Some came back, some never will. Some days the ache is bearable, you know it's there but you can still go about other things. Even now though, there are days it's nothing but that ache. But I know that feeling that pain is what separates me from the people who caused me that pain. It's what makes me a human in a sea of monsters.