I've never had powers that weren't caused by something else. My training has definitely helped me with adjusting on some level. I've had to deal with not letting things overtake me. But the totem feels like a step further. I can keep it under control while not actively engaging with it. I don't know about actually trying to master it.
Would you be willing to work with me to help me figure this out? And kick my ass if anything goes wrong. Absolutely willing to compensate you for your time.