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Well that was entirely annoying and inconvenient. I'm just glad my memories are back. Nearly a full week without them beyond the basics was tiresome.

Even so. It seems that after nearly six years, my Dreams have come to an actual end. It's...strange and I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I suppose relieved. Especially as, despite everything, it mostly ended positively which I never thought possible. Still, it is strange. Especially the notion that I would actually retire, though it's clear I'm still doing things on the side either as a consultant or...something.

You'd think by now I'd be used to the weird terror that my Dreams always have me waking up with. At least this time Eren was already home so I was able to immediately reassure myself that he wasn't in that weird fugue state that he got stuck with in the Dreams. He was supposed to be using his Titan form to move a boulder to block a hole in the wall when he just...ended up incapacitating himself. I don't know what happened but when I made my way across the city to him he was just in some type of trance and I...did the only thing I could think of to get his attention. I stabbed him in the shoulder and reminded that he had promised to defeat the Titans, to kill them all. And then about the promise he'd made me to explore the world outside the wall. To go see the ocean.

Anybody else ever woken up from one of these Dreams and had to run straight to the bathroom to vomit after something they’d seen in them? I want to be able to just block it out but it keeps coming back everytime I close my eyes. I can’t cope that way again even though I know it’ll make them stop Also - what is with the cops in my dreams trying to get me to say that my parents were attacked by wild dogs? Yeah I didn’t tell them about the monsters that I saw - I’m not that level of crazy there yet, just that we flipped and crashed while driving but I would have told them if it had been dogs or some other type of wild animal.

My seatbelt was jammed so I couldn’t get out of the car to help my parents, to help my mom as they started tearing into her body. Or to help Emma and that’s when the monsters noticed us and started coming towards the car. Luckily another car came around the bend in the road and the monsters took off, leaving me to be helped by the new arrivals and the drugs the EMT’s gave me when they showed up.