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You know, I'm pretty sure that taking a shower isn't supposed to trigger the smoke detector.

I forgot about Mother’s Day..but in a strange turn of events she didn’t yell or curse at me or anything for once. She showed up today and hugged me. We ended up actually talking for the first time in almost a year without my brother around to interrupt and twist my words and you know what? it wasn’t awful.

This was the first year in maybe 10, 15 years that I actually felt like I could celebrate Mother's Day.

My mom passed away when I was about 10 (#fyoucancer).

10.

What 10 year old is prepared to be without their mom? I mean, sure she had her moments and she yelled at me and probably was a total b-word, but she was my mom. She was the one who taught me how to sing, how to dance, how to just let loose and live in the moment. She painted all the time, and she made the best grilled cheese sandwiches and goddamnit do I ever miss her.

So yesterday, Yondu and I just listened to some of her old mixtapes, drank beer, swapped stories.... it was frickin' hard but you know what? Glad I got the old man around. This way, she's never really gone, not when there's at least two people who still think about her and miss her.

Thanks, Yondu. For an old, cranky, ugly man, you're pretty okay sometimes.

But only sometimes.

My biggest issue with Mother's Day, and Father's Day while I'm thinking about it, is that people want to use it to pretend that even the most hellish parents are some type of saint and they get offended when you don't want to play along with their delusion about your parents. You had amazing parents? Great. Lucky you. I'm happy for you honestly. And maybe a little jealous My parents? My mother threw me out of the house the day I turned 18 because my father told her she either threw me out or he'd throw both of us out and fire her from his company after freezing all of her assets. So don't expect me to get all warm and loving about them just because society has decided to give them some damn holidays.

Here we go here we go I've had enough caffeine that I can *feel the pulse of the universe* but I'm finally ready. It's happening. Here it is.

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We're putting it in. No more battery Tony. We're gettin' an upgrade. Gonna rip this electromagnet right out and do this all up proper. I'm gonna be a night light. Very exciting.

It's moving day, bitches!


I didn't realize I had so much stuff, omg when did this happen? Travel they said, it'll be fun they said. Where are they to lug all this crap for me!

One good thing about the donut shop is that I don't have to buy coffee anymore. I can go down there and get all I want to drink for free. And a donut to go with it - perk of ownership right? If that Dream I had last night is any indication of what I can start expecting when I go to bed I think I'm going to be taking advantage of my free coffee a lot more often.

Just like here Matt and our Dad went away on a mission for the military, surveying things and never came home. They were declared dead. Just like here And I enrolled in the Garrison where my teammates and I witnessed a vessel crash one night while I was out trying to test the satellite radio something I'd built. When we went to investigate we found the pilot from Matt and Dad's mission was in the vessel but before I could ask him anything about them Shiro got taken into custody by Garrison officials and then some guy that got kicked out the year before for not following the rules showed up and the four of us worked together to get Shiro out of their custody and then fled into the desert.

It was a waste of my time though - Shiro doesn't know anything about what happened to my family other than they were all taken captive by this enemy race called the Galra when they landed on that moon Kerberos. But he does remember that the Galra are searching for some weapon called Voltron and then right before I woke up we found this blue lion robot out in the desert.

It's weird, I spent the weekend drinking and partying and by yesterday morning I was only half as hungover as I should have been. I actually ended up taking care of Danny and Chase yesterday. I'm afraid I might be turning.

Tactical and AR training... Yeah, those seem like fun things to do. Could be worse I suppose. Could wake up with one of those weird fucking bird things again.

Also, seems the dreams gifted me with a laptop...

Also, Mitch, stop being so fucking gung-ho in my goddamn dreams.

I'd almost forgotten what civilian life was like but now that I'm back it's taking a lot more adjusting than I initially thought it would be but the head doctor over at the VA clinic says that's to be expected.

Doesn't make it any easier though because well no offence doc but unless you've been abroad fighting for your country then you have zero idea what it means to go from that to this.

We're not exactly seeing eye to eye because he wants me to talk and I really don't want to because what good is talking, exactly? Doesn't change anything. Shit still happened, people still died, and I'm still here trying to survive that.

Not always easy but no point bitching about it.