Cadence (princesscadence) wrote in valarlogs, @ 2013-03-29 00:30:00 |
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Entry tags: | !complete, kurt wagner (nightcrawler), princess cadance |
Who: Kurt Wagner and Princess Cadence
When: After these texts
Where: Kurt’s place, starting on the front step
What: An Apology, face to face.
Rating/Warnings: NSFW
Status: Complete!
Cadence wasn’t really sure what to expect. She was standing on Kurt’s doorstep, holding her phone in her hand. At least the hangover was gone now. She’d been miserable for most of the day. She felt she deserved it. She’d hurt him so badly, and now all she wanted to do was apologize. Every prayer in the world she could muster was going into hoping he could forgive her, but she would understand if he couldn’t. Or wouldn’t. She didn’t deserve it.
She lowered her attention to the doormat, and tapped the edge of it with the toe of her boot. She felt like scum. But he was going to hear her out, right? She should figure out how to put her feelings into words.
The door opened, and Kurt stood there, wearing a pair of jeans and nothing else. He stared at her, tail lashing behind him. He looked positively miserable. And much the same, despite the blue, the ears, and his eyes. They were yellow, but they were so...sad.
Cadence looked up into his eyes. There wasn’t a flinch in her face, nor a hesitation in her form. Not this time. The thought of losing him, the fear that she’d pushed him away, it made her fully realize how much she needed him. How much she really did love him. More than she knew. She swallowed, now absolutely terrified that she’d broken this relationship, and that she’d lost him forever.
“I’m sorry.” She said, softly. And she meant it with every fiber of her being.
Kurt looked into her eyes, and the expression on her face, even the posture of her body. He couldn’t stay angry. It still hurt, but he couldn’t stay angry. Not seeing her like this, and not after the dream he’d had last night. He sighed and closed the door behind her. “I forgive you.”
Oh, thank God. Cadence let out a huge gush of air, and with it came a sob. She wasn't expecting to cry, wasn't thinking things would turn out like this. But she couldn't help it. She'd been so worried, terrified of losing him forever. His forgiveness was such a relief it made her start sobbing.
Kurt bit his lip, then put his hands on her shoulders. He tried to wipe at her tears with his fingers, then stopped when he remembered they’d probably freak her out.
Cadence couldn’t lie. The way he looked was different, and strange. But that didn’t mean it was bad. She’d realized over the course of the last... whatever couple of days? That she didn’t care what he looked like. She didn’t care if he grew horns or lost a limb, or whatever. He was still Kurt, and she’d fallen in love with who he was inside.
She stepped forward and wrapped her arms around him. He was covered in soft … was it hair or fur? Either way, it was different, but most decidedly not unpleasant. She cried into his chest, clinging to him tightly.
It nearly made Kurt break down. He squeezed her tightly, kissing the top of her head as his emotions threatened to consume him. He wasn’t entirely sure that she could still look at him, but he didn’t care.
After a couple moments of overwhelming emotions, guilt, shame, relief, Cadence finally pulled back to look up into his eyes. As a Christian, she had an intimate relationship with forgiveness. It took strength, and didn’t make everything okay right away. She knew there was still pain, though she understood that he was willing to move on. And she vowed she would never hurt him again. Not if she could help it. “Thank you,” she whispered, looking into his yellow eyes and trying to grow used to the sight of him like this.
Hesitantly, he touched her cheek. “I have learned lately, that sometimes you need to take things on faith.”
She lifted her hand to rest it over his, holding his soft, three-fingered hand against her cheek. It was different, but soft and warm. There was a strong, powerful feeling inside her... intuition, maybe?... telling her that this was her Kurt. She had nothing to fear. Only everything to love. “I’ve learned that not all changes lead to endings.” She swallowed, running her thumb over his finger. “...feels like... like a new beginning.” So close to Easter, too. How fitting.
"Cadence..." He was sorry he'd been so hurtful before, in his text messages. He'd wanted to wallow and be hurt and retreat away from her and everything.
“I’m not going to lie, Kurt. I’m not going to lie and say it changes nothing.” She said, and lifted her free hand to rest against his chest, over where his heart would be. His fur was soft under her fingers. “...I’m going to have to get used to it.” Just like he had to get used to it. “But...” And she blushed. A smile crept across her lips. “You’re really fun to touch.”
That brought a ghost of a smile to his lips. “I know.. I just..I saw the look in your eyes, and every fear I ever had about my dreams came true.”
“I wish you’d given me a warning.” Cadence said, though she wasn’t accusing. She was sad about the way things transpired, and still felt incredibly guilty. “I was shocked and I reacted... poorly. The worst way I could have. I wish I could take it all back. I’m so sorry.”
“I vasn’t thinking very clearly. I tried to tell you, I looked like this, but I don’t think I vas very clear about it.” He rubbed the top of his head. “...It hurt so much.”
“I can only imagine.” Cadence said, her eyes falling closed. Tears leaked down her cheeks again, and she wrapped her arms around him to hug him tightly once more. “I hate that I hurt you so badly. I didn’t mean to. I would never mean to.”
“I know.. I know..” He rubbed at her back with one hand, and his tail wrapped around her leg possessively. The tip brushed at a thigh as he squeezed her tight against him.
Cadence gave a gentle squirm at the feel of his tail wrapping around her. She turned and wiped at her face, a smile breaking across her features, then she looked down. “...it’s going to take some getting used to.”
The tip waved at her. “Ja. It is. I’m even more flexible than before. And I can..climb things. Really easily.” He wanted to impress her, that there were good things to this change.
"What does it feel like?" She asked, curiously. "I mean... is it... sensitive?" She reached a hand down to touch his tail. She wanted to learn everything about his new appearance. It was really cool now she was past the initial shock. Though, she was going to miss the way he looked before.
“It feels like...a finger, I suppose. A little more sensitive.” The tail was soft, and it wrapped gently around her hand. It sqeezed it. Kurt watched her face, his eyes wide. He was still unsure.
"It's.... cute." Cadence said, having decided on an adjective. She gave him a tentative smile. "You're cute." The more she looked at him, now she knew it was still him in there, the more she actually kinda liked it. She lifted her free hand to his cheek, moving in closer.
He looked down at her, that unsurity on his face. “Cadence...”
"It's okay, Kurt." She said softly. "It's okay." She nodded, pulling him in.
Kurt leaned into Cadence’s arms, burying his face into her neck as he felt the past few days emotions start to crush down onto him. He bit his lip to keep himself from breaking into tears.
It would have been okay for him to cry. Cadence cuddled him in close against her, running one hand over his hair. She had only a couple days worth of emotions over this, but Kurt had a lifetime of hurt he was dealing with. She wanted to be there for him, whatever he needed. She loved him, and realized she wouldn't lose him.
He snuggled Cadence in against him, then lifted his face to hers and pressed his lips against the woman’s. They were soft and smooth, like they’d always been. Just blue.
That was one thing that didn’t change. His appearance may have changed, but the feeling that kissing him gave her was the same. She wrapped her arms up and around him and kissed him with all the love she felt in her heart.
Kurt lifted her up, hugging the stuffing out of her as they kissed. He kissed his relief, his love, his fear, and all those emotions that welled up inside at the sight of her. He set her down after a long moment, and stroked her face.
Her legs wrapped around him when he lifted her, one hand tangling in his hair while they snogged. It felt wonderful, especially after Cadence had been so convinced that she’d never have one of these again. The kiss ended after a long moment, and her feet hit the floor. She was grinning, her face still pressed close against his. “What now?” She asked, thinking they could climb into bed, or snuggle up and watch a movie, or have something for dinner...
“I love you.” He kissed her again, lightly. ‘I love you and I don’t deserve you but I love you anyway. I vill do anything you vant, just to have you near.”
“You don’t have to do anything special, Kurt. Just... forgive me when I make stupid mistakes, and love me as much as I love you. That’s all I want.” She took hold of both of his hands and gave them a squeeze. It was a little strange that her fingers didn’t thread through his the same way they had before, but new wasn’t bad. Just different.
This time it was Kurt’s tail that stroked Cadence’s cheek. After a little playful thwack on her butt. “You really..are accepting this. I’m...this helps, a lot. It helps so much.”
The thwack made her jump a bit, and the tail against her cheek was... different. Not bad, just different. She was starting to like it, actually. “I thought I’d ruined things forever. I thought I’d lost you. It made me see everything in a new light.”
"I thought it was over forever too." Kurt chewed on his lips, gazing into her eyes. He was filled with trepidation.
She wanted to apologize again, but she was afraid that would make her sound like a broken record. So she simply leaned up to tap a kiss against his lips. “I realized that I want you. I don’t want what you look like, even though that’s a part of who you are. I want what’s in here,” she touched his temple with her fingertips, “and what’s in here.” She touched his chest, over his heart. “The rest is just... extra.”
"I alvays knew that there vas an angel inside you." Kurt smiled tearfully.
Maybe there was. Maybe Cadence was something special. She didn’t think so, but it was nice to see it reflected in Kurt’s eyes. She leaned up and in and kissed him passionately, wrapping her arms around him and pulling him flush against her.
He kissed her back, pulling her against him tightly, so that no air could pass through the space between their bodies. There was less worry now, and more love, and a ton of relief. He felt like he wanted to cry, though this time the emotions were happier.
She broke her lips away from his after a moment to breathe, then pulled him backward with her toward the sofa. Her knees felt weak after that kiss, and she was a little afraid she might fall down.
Kurt sat, pulling her into his lap and rubbing his fingers under the back of her shirt. He kissed her again, not wanting to use words. He didn’t want to let her go ever again.
Cadence returned his kisses, going from gentle, lazy kissing to hungry, passionate, making out in a very, very short time. Her body wanted more. She wanted to prove to him how much she loved him, how much she didn’t care what he looked like. Was it too much too soon? Did he need more time to adjust? She wanted... more. She just didn’t know how to ask for it.
He never didn’t want her, but he was shy, and self conscious about the changes to his body. It was puberty again, but worse. Still, he felt more whole with his tail. Which kept snaking down the back of her pants then darting back out.
His tail tickled her again, and Cadence broke her lips from his once more to giggle. “...that tickles.” She said, lifting her hand to tangle her fingers in his hair. The thought of what she wanted to do with him made her cheeks darken. “...do you think...” Her free hand moved down the side of his body toward his pants, and she shifted a little so it could trail along the waistband to the fly. “...we can explore a bit more? I want to see you. The new you. All of the new you.”
Her face was bright red.
Kurt swallowed and nodded his head. “I’d...if you’re sure. I don’t vant to frighten you off, and I don’t vant you to think...you have to do anything to make it up to me.”
She did think that. But she wasn’t about to say it to him. She shook her head a little, fingers tugging a little on his fly. She got it open, somehow, and gave him a little nod. She would have to move out of his lap before they could get his pants off. “...I’m not going anywhere.” She said, softly. “Not without you.”
"Cadence..." Kurt shifted as her fingers tugged at his pants. He wanted her so badly that he ignored the little angel on his shoulder talking about advantage and taking it.
“Here?” Cadence asked, breaking into a devious little grin. It would be kinda fun to fool around on the sofa, right? She climbed off of his lap so he could take those constricting pants off, and tugged her own shirt up and over her head. She tossed it aside. Her bra was red under her shirt, her panties under her jeans matched. She leaned in and kissed him again, deciding it was more fun to let him take her clothes off.
He grinned, tugging at her jeans and quickly getting the offending garments off. He leaned in and kissed at her throat, the exposed parts of her breasts as he unhooked her bra.
It was so much fun getting naked with him. She let him pull her clothes off (her boots thunked as they each hit the floor), and took a moment to get his pants down and off, too. She took a moment to take him in, looking at every inch of his body, and being kinda obvious about it. She loved the way he looked. He was Adonis, even with the fur and the tail.
His body was leaner in all the good ways. certain parts were furless. Ears, lips, finger tips and the like. Even his nipples lacked fur. Other things, too best not mentioned in polite company.
He was distracted by the beauty of the Latina in front of him, though.
Cadence wanted to pet every inch of his fur. Okay, and the parts that weren’t covered in fur, too. She reached both hands up to cup his cheeks, and drew him in to kiss him. There was so much love radiating from her. She could feel it pulsating from her heart and her forehead. Chakras, maybe. Whatever it was, the love was filling the room. She leaned back on the sofa, pulling him down with her.
Nuzzling into the kiss, Kurt trailed his hands down her body, then he was on top of her, stroking and caressing roughly. He slid his hand between her legs, and into her panties, stroking more lightly. His fingers were stronger and thicker than a normal persons, and he put them to good use.
Oh, boy. Cadence felt her body flush, her legs spread, and her breath catch at the feel of his hand slinking down her body, slipping under her panties. She kissed him hungrily, arms wrapping tightly up and around him to pull him flush against her. A moan escaped her into the kiss. She just wanted more. So much more.
Laughing softly, Kurt pulled her panties down. His finger pushed in, deeply, and worked inside her. Something started flicking at her clit, very rapidly. Except he had one hand inside her and the other was on a breast....
A gentle sigh turned into a moan as she felt him enter her. It was quite a bit more than a finger, but not quite the same as... well... Boy, it was good. Really good. She gasped, her hips pushing down against his finger, and then shuddered at the feel of vibrating against her. Suddenly, what he looked like was the farthest thing from her mind.
Grinning and moaning her name, Kurt nipped his sharp teeth along Cadence’s throat, nuzzling her as he moved his finger and his tail faster, and faster. He wanted her, all of her, but was so paranoid at this point that if he got her to come for him, that would be enough.
Oh, she was going to come for him, all right. Hard. His attentions were absolutely fantastic, making her body writhe underneath his, her toes curl and her breath come in gasps. She moaned his name, and then something that sounded like “I’m gonna” but trailed off into nothingness as her body went rigid with pleasure. It was perhaps her most powerful climax yet. She bucked under him, moaning and gasping, as the orgasm ran its course.
“I love you.” His voice was hot and growly in her ear. He pulled his fingers out, and licked them while his tail wormed it’s way inside. His eyes flashed hungrily, and he cupped Cadence’s face, kissing her deeply.
“I love you,” she parroted before his mouth found hers. Her voice was coming in gasps now, her body relaxing... just a little... under his. She broke the kiss to gasp. “Make love to me. C’mere.” She tugged on his shoulders, shifting under him.
He laughed and then they BAMF’d! They appeared over the bed, landing on it with Kurt on top. He deepened the kiss suddenly as he spread Cadence’s legs and pushed into her. It was a little hurried - he was desperate to feel her and worried that she could freak out. “I love you...”
Cadence gave a little yelp into the kiss when they BAMF’d. That was something she wasn’t sure she would ever get used to. But there they were, and he was moving her, sliding into her, making her gasp and writhe again, and soon the sulfur was gone. All that was left was Cadence and Kurt, and they were wrapped up in each other.
Kurt bit at her neck, and kissed her with need and love. Each thrust was made with the same sort of need, and filled with the same sort of love. He cupped her face in his hands as he moved, and his tail curled around her left breast, the tip playing with her nipple.
All she could do was to move against him, tipping her hips and gasping as she met every one of his thrusts. It was so powerful, so good. She moaned his name into his mouth, one leg lifting to wrap around his hip. Pleasure was building within her again, hot and powerful.
She felt amazing. Her breath was hot in his mouth and every movement they made together made his brain want to explode. He trailed a hand down her leg and back up again as he started to move faster. He thrust into her harder, panting against her cheek as he lost himself in the pleasure.
"OhmyGod, right there, right there right there, " Cadence found herself moaning when he hit a very good spot. Over and over. It made her tense, gasp and her toes curled. She was going to finish again if he wasn't careful. With him buried deep within her. "Here," she took his tail from her breast and slipped it between them to rub against her clit. It was small and nimble, wasn't awkward. So good.
Kurt groaned again, and his tail immediately went to work. He flicked it faster than he was moving his hips. The man buried his face in Cadence's neck as he felt himself near the edge.
She came. She came hard. It was different than the last, but just as meaningful. Her body clenched around him and she cried out something unintelligible at the peak.
His voice rose to join Cadence’s as his orgasm ripped through his body. Kurt jerked almost violently, spasming as he came in her. He groaned her name, and let out a little laugh. “Cadence...god...I love you...”
Cadence was giving little moans as she came down, cute whimpers with each breath. Her body was relaxing slowly, every muscle in her body going limp underneath him. “...I’ve never felt...” She shook her head a little, clenching down around him still inside her. “...so much love.”
Kurt laughed, and grinned at her. He was in no hurry to pull away, instead nuzzling her with the whole of his body. He groaned softly when her muscles contracted. “I vanted..you ...all of it.”
“I wanted it, too.” Cadence said softly. The power of that experience was almost overwhelming. She’d never felt so much love before. So much lust, so much kindness and caring. He was gentle, but forceful at the same time. She loved him when he was making love to her. “I still... I want you. I love you.”
Relief washed over him. Kurt nuzzled her throat, and then kissed her lips. “I vant to make you happy, and feel content liebchen.”
“Just being with you is enough.” When she thought she’d lost him, the only thing he could think of was to get him back. There was nothing she wanted more than to get him back, to make him happy again, to prove to him how much she loved him. She may have been a little on the obsessed side. “I’m happy when I’m with you.”
He rested against her, and on her. Kurt was emotionally and physically drained. This whole thing had taken its toll on him and he hadn’t even told her about his last dream.
Cadence lifted her arms and wrapped them around him, planting kisses against his cheek and jaw. She nuzzled there, lazily, feeling emotionally and physically spent. In the best way possible. “I feel like I could fall asleep right now.” She said. “Like, the world is perfect and everything’s comfortable and warm...”
“I love you..stay the night? Please?” Kurt looked at her nervously.
“I don’t think I could leave, even if I wanted to.” Cadence said, honestly. It felt like her body had turned to jelly. She could barely feel her legs, let alone move them. Her eyes were already closed.
“I love you,” he whispered again. “I love you.”
“I love you.” Cadence repeated. And it was true. She loved the fur, she loved the blue. She really loved his tail. “I’ll make breakfast. Pr-Pr-Promise.” She said, a yawn interrupting the word as she spoke.
Kurt hugged her with all five limbs. He was quickly asleep.
She was asleep not long after him, cuddled close, safe and warm, in his arms.