Having Leon touch him, willingly touch him in intimate ways, under bed covers, purposefully across bare skin, was still surreal to Alex. He was sure Leon hadn't meant to kiss him either. Moreover, he'd been certain that it would be the only time it woud ever happen and he'd been content in that knowledge.
Now, he was just confused.
He didn't know if this was Leon wanting him or if this was Leon seeking distraction from what had happened to him. It would be easy to take advantage of, but Alex didn't want either of them to regret anything.
As Leon spoke, a wave of relief washed over him, though it wasn't visible in the dim bedroom. "Before and since," he said without missing a beat, seeing the easy segue. "I definitely meant to, just like I meant to with you."